If you could live in a musical, Would you?

Imagine the possibilities of being able to say what you want in song and live with no regret sing your little heart out with each mood.. Wake up the next morning and hide behind the music (or the beer), it didn't mean anything it was just a song.. A great song. A classic song! Sing of love sing of joy sing of rock and roll.. Tonight my choice would indeed be rock and roll. Short skirt, short shirt a beer in one hand maybe even both, a constant musical rhythm fueling each stride. Going out dancing there would be no need to go to a night club, the streets would be full of people singing your song, sweaty but in the groove like tomorrow will always be better because for now we have today. 

I used to be a party girl, Short skirts see through shirts high heels and beer in hand.. Tonight I wish I could have a glimpse of that, Not perhaps the beer but the dancing, the volume, walking around town like it owed me something (Which I still haven't figured out why I thought that, I did) Growing up is so easy to do those days are far behind me and yet I still feel the need to get up and dance. Dance like I have never danced before Happy, Excited, Content with everything I have accomplished in life even the failures for without them I wouldn't be where I am today!

So I ask you, if you could live in a musical, Would you?

Hell Freakin YEAH!!

My song..

Pour some sugar on me-Def Leopard. 

Noradsanta.org

It's that time of year again where we get to sit in front of the fireplace, watch the snow fall whilst drinking hot chocolate loaded with marshmallows. The Christmas tree is up, the lights are on.

Out comes the laptop, Noradsanta.org. Currently, Santa is somewhere between China and Mongolia. Last year Cody was very upset that Santa arrived in the UK much sooner than he did here, I am excited to see his reaction today when at 5pm we will sit and watch him fly over Southam, Warwickshire UK.

We sit reading books regarding the nativity, Talking about the birth of Jesus Christ and how magical the day actually is. My boys ask me how did Santa get involved with Jesus' birthday... I have no clue.. I guess I need to get on google!

Not enough swear words!

I am having one of those nights that avoiding certain people is the right thing to do.. Sitting in a "Hypothetical"  corner and being stoned is not what I call a fun evening!! Being laughed at and humiliated.. One person can change your attitude so quickly and then everything goes down hill.. so with this I simply say..

Sometimes there just aren't enough swear words in the world!!

Cruise control?

Whilst taking a road trip with my children last week I once again chose to resist hitting the cruise control button and left my foot firmly between the accelerator and brake pedal.. I couldn't help but wonder, "Would a car set to cruise control know to stop if the driver perhaps fell asleep and rolled off the road?" I know morbid much.. but, Seriously, would a car know when to let the cruise control stop?

first morning done!

well, that could've gone better.. Although i haven't run  in quite some time my mile time was 9 and a half minutes... No, Not happy about that at all! I did manage 70 squats per minute and beat my record of 17 situps per minute and succeeded with 21.. woot woot, Tomorrow is an easy day, scales and body measurements...

Body Semester.

Well, here I am.. The night before I start a 4 week program with Body semester, This is nothing new to me as I have been a student here for the last 6 months, The first 3 were amazing I lost 30lb and became a amazing body age of 24! 11 years younger than my actual age! My muscle mass was fantastic everything went great.. The last 3 months were sadly not so great. My attitude stunk! Really stunk.. Things changed my son became very sick and life just simply became confusing.. I start a 5 day 4 week course tomorrow at 5am! I am excited owning up to the fact I ate like crap, that although I exercised  along with Jillian Michaels (On the days I wasn't at the studio) I didn't give it my all. I will be not only showing up but showing up with attitude! The attitude that only a British girl has, all my frustrations all my anger all of my all will be spent in that studio! 


I am proof that Body Semester works! I am also proof that you control the results! The next four weeks are going to be brutal for me so please understand when I decline lunch, I will be sticking to this plan for the long haul, not just for four weeks! 


Here's to a happy healthier me! 

The pain remains.

5 years ago tomorrow we will celebrate Charlie's birthday and the birthday of our sweet little girl Hannah-Rae, her heart stopped beating and our little angel was chosen to return to her heavenly father, We will never understand the reasons behind her leaving us so soon and without ever seeing us or hearing how much we all loved her. Some things in life have no answers, The loss of a child is never anything a parent should have to experience. Time does heal however, the pain remains, it just becomes easier to live. Each passing year we have celebrated Charlie's birthday thinking of our precious daughter. Not a moment passes where she isn't in my thoughts she will forever be a part of me just as much as she is a part of her brothers and sister.

Hannah-Rae Flowers, you are a beautiful child of God, May you sing and dance with Jesus all day and every day, until we meet again. Love always xx Mom.

Garden house, Cedar City UT.

Celebrating a anniversarry typically involves a romantic evening, However last night, was anything but!

We visited The Garden House,

Finally the hostess seats us letting us know our server will be with us shortly, Ten minutes later, still no server, 15 minutes still no server, I casually comment that perhaps its time to just eat the bread and head for the door, WOO HOO Waiter arrives! Grayson seemed stressed but still managed a nice warm friendly smile, he tells us the specials, by this time we both knew exactly what we wanted.. the starter arrives;

Baked Brie, A slice of French Brie wrapped in phylo pastry..
This is by far my favorite food, somewhat excited I pick up my knife and attempt to eat.. While the pastry was indeed cooked the brie itself was not, very cold and well, dry..

The salad was amazing but can you really go wrong with fresh lettuce, onions, cucumbers and cherry tomatos?

A young couple clearly on there first date arrive, Excellent entertainment!

Have to add at this point drinks had still not arrived... Again casually mentioning the lack of drinks, Grayson soon comes over apologizing profusively he forgot the drinks we ordered..

Charlie ordered chicken fried steak which came with mashed potatoes and seasonal veggies.. I ordered red trout with pilaf rice and seasonal veggies...

Charlie had few complaints, perhaps I am too picky about food, last I checked rice typically isn't served dried and burnt and veggies served still frozen, the trout was a little dry and had a dried out piece of lemon butter on the top, however still enjoyable. When Grayson finally came back to check on us (almost an hour later) we let him know of the frozen veggies and dried burnt rice and he smiled sweetly, "Thanks for letting me know" turned and walked away...

Somehow I don't think we'll go back!


The best part of dinner..

The young couple on first date;

Him, Yeah I own a drumset..

Her, Oh do you play?

Him, Well duh!